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Turning eyes to Jesus June 19, 2008

UPDATE: Just got a text that says: ‘Little Molly is starting to fade a bit. She is ready to go home.’ They have not removed the life support yet. From an email from Rebekah’s brother, Molly had a hard night last night as her body is starting to give out. Please continue to pray for this family as they say goodbye to their little girl today.

The latest and possibly last post about Molly Mutz. This is an email from Dennis Rainey, Molly Grandfather. Please lift them in prayer today. As my friend Christy shared, she is holding her daughter a little tighter today. I think I will be loving my boys a bit more closely today too! Our children are precious gifts. Jacob and Rebecca are going through the unthinkable and making decisions parents should not have to make. Yet, they are doing so with the knowledge that God is God. They have been remarkable in their faith. Grief and tears have flowed and will continue yet they truly know that God is with them. It is humbling to have been able to witness from afar their faith.

As the sun is coming out here in Colorado, and The Son will soon be welcoming home Rebecca and Jakes daughter, Molly. A gift, entrusted to them for 7 days, to be ushered home, undoubtedly by a band of the gentlest and mighty angels dispatched from the throne of God to carry her into the presence of The Savior.


What has been tough, is about to get much tougher. Pray for Rebecca and Jake and forward this email to anyone you know who will pray for them.


Our days here have been so full of the presence of God. Honoring Him for Molly Ann.


Friday morning she was born… she didn’t cry for nearly 4’ because she was suffering from congestive heart failure. Her mom held her only for seconds before she was whisked away to be placed on life support. We think her problem is a heart murmur. Oh how I wish that was all she had. She is rushed by ambulance to The Children’s Hospital here in Aurora. We arrive that evening to hear Jake say she is going to need brain surgery. I am thinking…I wish it was a heart murmur.


Saturday was a day of testing, in more ways than one. She has x-rays, ultra-sound, and MRIs around 11. The radiologist makes a copy for Jake and me from her text book about the Vein of Galen. I go on line and find out that Molly is up against a serious abnormality in the middle of her brain that it is VERY rare and VERY destructive. Around 4 we are seated in a private room with a neurologist, cardiologist, neonatologist, and nurse giving us the news that over 50% of Molly’s brain is permanently damaged and that the damage affects both halves of the brain. 10-15-20 dangerous surgeries, she MIGHT be able to have A FEW functions as a human being. (Later I talk to a friend who has been a neurologist for 30 years and he puts it in perspective—“In cases like Molly where there is so much brain damage, I have never seen a good outcome through surgery.” Never is a strong word. Yet we hope and pray for a miracle…even today) It is as though this young couple have been hit by a truck, news beyond comprehension. Joy turns to mourning.


In other words, it would take a miracle for Molly to live.


Sunday Jake’s parents, Bill and Pam Mutz, arrive along with some of their family. Laura flies in from DC, Samuel and Stephanie and their three children fly in from Seattle, Ashley flies in from Memphis where she was on vacation with her husband and 5 sons and Ben and Marsha Kay come to the hospital. Rebecca and Jake want to introduce their new daughter to each family member. Many come and kneel at Rebecca’s feet and just sob. When a family is being a family it is powerful. Worshipful. God honoring.


Jake and Rebecca spend a good bit of Sunday and Monday praying, talking, seeking second opinions trying to decide what is God’s will for Molly…what is the loving thing to do?


Monday we surround Molly and have a baby dedication, read Scripture, pray and sing a couple of songs. More than a dozen of us weep our way through the familiar hymn:


Turn your eyes upon Jesus.

Look full in His wonderful face.

And the things of earth will grow strangely dim,

In the light of His glory and grace.


Again many of us kneel at Rebecca’s feet as she hold’s little Molly in her arms teethered to life support tubes.


Monday night Bill and Pam Mutz and Barbara and I witness the unimaginable…we sit in a hospital room as Jake hold’s Molly…listening for over 2 hours as Jake and Rebecca process their choices. God is God, but it’s impossible to NOT feel, this just shouldn’t be. What a choice for a young couple to have to make. They decide to not pursue the several very dangerous and complex brain surgeries and remove life support later in the week.


Tuesday, honestly, I don’t know what happened to Tuesday. But I do know that if love could heal, Molly would be well. Instead, we can all see Molly’s little chest pounding, her heart beating faster and faster, trying to keep up with what she needs to live. 60-80% of her blood is going to her brain when it should be 10-15%.


I do know that Wednesday was an incredible day. Videoing, picture taking, making a mold of Molly’s hands, Rebecca and Jake holding Molly still teethered by life support tubes. Rebecca and the mom’s giving Molly her first, and only bath, washing her hair. Stroking her little naked body. This is not what this young mother expected. Doing footprints and hand prints. Ask me to show you my bible and I’ll show you her footprints all over Psalm 127 and 128…and her handprint on my life verse, Psalm 112:1-2…Her life may have been short in terms of days, but her life has been mighty. Mighty Molly Mutz.


Wednesday closed out with this email at midnight from Jake, on the close of the last full day that Molly will likely live:


I just got done holding Molly chest-to-chest for the last 3.5 hours! Heavenly!I could feel her beating heart on my bare chest! 2569 kisses later I relinquished her to Mom.

She is an Angel!!!!

Now Rebecca is experiencing this delight! I just looked over at Bec & she nodded, as if to say – I WILL be sleeping here with my Sweet Pea for the next 12 hours!

We love you guys!
Jake & Rebecca

And now today. Molly’s coronation day. Read Ecclesiastes 7:1-4. This morning we will all say goodby one by one and then leave Rebecca and Jake to spend the afternoon with her. She is expected to live only a few minutes after being taken off all life support machines later on this afternoon.


Pray for Jake and Rebecca today.

And for the Mutz family and ours.

Our hearts are breaking.


You are loved and appreciated,

Molly’s Papa

Ps 112:1-2

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4 Responses to “Turning eyes to Jesus”

  1. Marissa Says:

    Thank you for posting this. I am a close friend of Molly’s Aunt Ashley, and my heart has been breaking for them all week. It is so difficult, but I am thankful to know what they are going through this afternoon so I can pray through the tears. They are an amazing family, and I know that they will continue to glorify God even in their grief.

    Marissa

  2. Erin Says:

    My name is Erin and I am one of the nurses who helped take care of Molly at Avista Hospital. I am deeply saddened by what is happening in the lives of this young family and wanted you to know that I”m praying for them today.
    ~erin

  3. Laurie Says:

    way too close for comfort…My sincere prayers are with this family in this painful journey.

  4. Laura H Says:

    What a precious baby….thank you so much for this update. Have been praying for them all day and will continue to pray. Oh God please hold them so tight.


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